For instance, I had not been keeping up with my morning routine for 2 weeks now and I was feeling restless today. I just committed to myself that my inner peace is vital and just like that I am restarting my routine. It is easy to look at myself and say “oh, I am not doing what I am supposed to do. I am not calmer. I am not good enough”. I stopped myself mid sentence and changed course. I am learning to be kind and patient with myself. I can tell that I am better at it now than before! And that is a huge win!
Now after about a year of having the meditation habit. Sometimes failing sometimes having streaks of up to 2 unbroken weeks. I can tell.
But if the question is when I noticed? The answer is.
I noticed when my partners and family told me that I was calmer and clearer.