When you feel sad and alone. And you have huge responsibility that only you have. And you feel like just crawling in a hole and staying there. You start to overthink everything and worry more.
My mind spirals into “if I don’t do this, then this good thing won’t happen. And if that good thing doesn’t happen, then this other food thing won’t happen-“ until I eventually go over two decades of things happening. I start shaking and my limbs feel numb. I concentrate for about 15 seconds and then the next 15 seconds thinking about something entirely different.
You can feel your emotions change around certain people that’s how you know if your stressed about a person or an object and things you do will be pressured to do right