When I am losing hope and going through a difficult situation. Currently in this pandemic I feel really depressed. I cannot see my friends, I live with my parents who I don't have a good relationship with and it seems like I have no job prospects, yet I still have to be grateful for my safety and privileged position.
I suffer from an eating disorder so if I’m having a lapse it’s hard for me to find gratitude all I feel and experience is self hate. But when the lapse is over I find gratitude that I made it through the lapse and I’m getting back on track.
After a long day that just didn't go right. It's hard to pull myself out of the negativity and see what's great in life. But once I do, everything becomes a great learning experience